[It shuts him up, trying so damn hard to think it through. He can't say there's a single reason it could not be just as Klaus said. He hates magic.]
[Nobunaga can't say for certain that it wasn't the case. But he hates it more than anything. And he tries so very hard not be motivated on serious things by hate. He was right about one thing though, Klaus would say Nobunaga just didn't get it.]
[The only sticking point:]
I hurt Valdis? She went against me, scared me so much Yato rejected me 3 times, drained my soul until I couldn't stand, could barely speak, and you're worried about her more than me?
Did you get married to her when I wasn't looking?
I know it's my responsibility, but she didn't know what I was doing and didn't think to ask. You neither. Mr. Communication. You said--
[Starts crying again but does his best to face Klaus.]
I'm not as smart as you think I am and you know it! [Does that make sense? No? Whatever, it's the intent, right?!] If you don't tell me things, how will I know? I didn't know Arthur's blind! Because I had to be told! I can't tell these things! I need your help! You could have just--
Yelled at me. Sat down, told me to keep my hands to myself, because you were mad at me. Told me what I can't see! Told me that Ava would have said to stop being stupid, and fought with me about it! Anything but leave me on the floor! That's the worst! That's like saying, I'm the worst! That's what I deserve! To be walked on for being too weak! I thought you'd protect me like my sheathe! I was scared!! [Wail!]
Instead you got swept away by everyone's emotions except mine, but mine should be the ones that matter most to you... [Cries!!!]
If I didn't change the rules, then aren't I next???? My cursed blades, or magical version of mizune gunblade that just kills people I love. I can say, "Yeah, but Klaus is smarter and stronger than the Captain, he'd actually stop it," but it's not a matter of prevention it's after that-- [Hiccup.] It's about trying anything no matter what. The Captain deserves to be free too!! What kind of freedom is all this pain?!
[Another gentle headbutt chin nudge!] I thought that's why you're my partner in crime. You didn't... give me a chance. And you didn't reach out to me either, stupid! I've been broken for weeks! And hurting Yato! And I can't fix it. Gods can't save anybody, it has to come from other people! If the Captain really wants to be a God, then he has to learn what that actually means.
[Quietly after he can breathe and calmly-ish:]
I love you. I want to be married. We are in my heart. I told the Japanese: Yato and Yuuki. Some things never change. They ignored it. [The WEAKEST of laughs.]
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[Stupid infinite possibilities magic.]
[It shuts him up, trying so damn hard to think it through. He can't say there's a single reason it could not be just as Klaus said. He hates magic.]
[Nobunaga can't say for certain that it wasn't the case. But he hates it more than anything. And he tries so very hard not be motivated on serious things by hate. He was right about one thing though, Klaus would say Nobunaga just didn't get it.]
[The only sticking point:]
I hurt Valdis? She went against me, scared me so much Yato rejected me 3 times, drained my soul until I couldn't stand, could barely speak, and you're worried about her more than me?
Did you get married to her when I wasn't looking?
I know it's my responsibility, but she didn't know what I was doing and didn't think to ask. You neither. Mr. Communication. You said--
[Starts crying again but does his best to face Klaus.]
I'm not as smart as you think I am and you know it! [Does that make sense? No? Whatever, it's the intent, right?!] If you don't tell me things, how will I know? I didn't know Arthur's blind! Because I had to be told! I can't tell these things! I need your help! You could have just--
Yelled at me. Sat down, told me to keep my hands to myself, because you were mad at me. Told me what I can't see! Told me that Ava would have said to stop being stupid, and fought with me about it! Anything but leave me on the floor! That's the worst! That's like saying, I'm the worst! That's what I deserve! To be walked on for being too weak! I thought you'd protect me like my sheathe! I was scared!! [Wail!]
Instead you got swept away by everyone's emotions except mine, but mine should be the ones that matter most to you... [Cries!!!]
If I didn't change the rules, then aren't I next???? My cursed blades, or magical version of mizune gunblade that just kills people I love. I can say, "Yeah, but Klaus is smarter and stronger than the Captain, he'd actually stop it," but it's not a matter of prevention it's after that-- [Hiccup.] It's about trying anything no matter what. The Captain deserves to be free too!! What kind of freedom is all this pain?!
[Another gentle headbutt chin nudge!] I thought that's why you're my partner in crime. You didn't... give me a chance. And you didn't reach out to me either, stupid! I've been broken for weeks! And hurting Yato! And I can't fix it. Gods can't save anybody, it has to come from other people! If the Captain really wants to be a God, then he has to learn what that actually means.
[Quietly after he can breathe and calmly-ish:]
I love you. I want to be married. We are in my heart. I told the Japanese: Yato and Yuuki. Some things never change. They ignored it. [The WEAKEST of laughs.]