"Knowing what to look out for." Expand on this. [It is really hard not to cover Klaus in kisses, but Nobunaga is still hesitant. He just uses his fingers to convey everything!!] I know what can happen in withdrawal. That's why I had the flask, but... [He gets an inkling between the two things, that it is why Klaus commiserated on a special level with Valdis.] Did I take advantage of Valdis' vulnerability in inviting her to bed with us?
[Valdis. Vulnerable. It's a hard slap to his system. He knew she hadn't been all there, but he hadn't thought too deeply on it. He knew his own desire to deal death, the power rush from killing, that sometimes the only thing he transitioned into was sex. Nobunaga shakes out his own hair, apologetically kisses between Klaus' shoulder blades so he can take his hand back, but puts one of Klaus' hands on him, constant contact, so neither of them felt lost! And scrubs out his hair with both hands. He needs to think!]
Safety because... it isn't good to use each other like addictions. I may have messed up my relationship with Valdis further back than I thought before, but this is good to know.
... Luther thinks you don't care about things? It is the exact opposite. You care the deepest, even when it's not about you, you feel the pain anyway. That is why I say you are so strong. Luther's not very... bright, is he? [Tentative placating kiss, and cleans Klaus with both hands now, and starts massaging Klaus!] I ask with love!
[As for Yato, yes! What a great God, Klaus doesn't suspect a thing!! Or is playing along. Nah, probably not.] Yato cares more about you than you realize. Not just because of me, but on your own merits. If any good came of the last two weeks, I hope you realize how many people would defend you, no matter what. And what the Captain did to him was... painful. He was nearly paralyzed, but still, you helped him. Don't underestimate that. [Kisses the shoulders, still massaging them happily! Chu!]
Just don't leave me again, I'm not strong enough a second time. That's not an ultimatum, it's a boundary. I'll try not to make it like it is only you doing something, but know, even in the heat of battle, sit on me and talk to me. Tell me everything, anything, your fears, and i will fix them. Just don't stop talking until I get it.
[There's a hard pinch of Klaus' spine at the base of the neck he's massaging at Bash's name, before he relaxes instantly. Oh wow, that's all? That's just how Klaus normally is with his friends. Okay. He kisses it apologetically, but gives a large rough bite to Klaus' shoulder purely to reassure himself that this was his husband. No letting go.]
Consent, is it?
[He addressed the safety thing, but--] I have not wanted anyone but you since we began. Or at least since Sharky's birthday. [There was only a week between, after all!] But more than that... [Both hands envelope one of Klaus' hands and hold it to his heart.] If I am sad, I cannot have sex. I must not let myself, or you, stop me from this mission until it is through. Then I will know the battle is over, the enemy spies, and their poison are routed. When I am physically one, and joined with you, I let myself feel safe. I must not until that is truly the case, or my senses will dull, and the very act itself would feel lesser. I will only accept the best, Lucky 4. From myself, and from you. No one else is the best, only you.
[Still holding both hands to his chest, he leans their foreheads together.] Valdis thought my calling her Gorgeous was for sex, it isn't. I was trying to say she had the power over me, but she probably felt it wasn't true, because I'm not able to--
Max Imum was in a bad way. High from cooking for people, feeling fulfilled so when he ran out? Useless, lost, needing someone to take control over him. I called Pratt, and Teyrey, and sent the two men mapping corners, and jogging flights of stairs. Though, I was a bit drunk, and pulled him by the tie. I couldn't help it. I can't imagine how hard it is in the future not to constantly choke anyone irksome. [Nobunaga...] This is what I mean as well, my spouse-in-crime, love of my life, soulmate by red threads of fate. It is very dangerous to mask the problem with decoration. It needs iron and rock. I will resolve every last fracture between us. And only then will I be sure that we are safe, nothing is hurting us inside out.
Did I ever tell you about Kitsuno? She died of plague. I wanted more medicine. More prosperity. [Tentatively checks on Klaus so he understands how much that does mean to him. Though Klaus once suggested it was unattainable.] And instead, the monks would tell me, it was just fate, the way of the gods. She was tortured by unseen forces, for no reason. [Turns Klaus around to kiss his forehead, rest their chests together, one hand laced again, the other cleeeeeaning!]
I still cannot abide playing by the rules of fate. You don't have to join me to still be on my side, or even protect me, but know that is where I'll be. A world that has such rules, is not a world worth respecting enough not to at least try. I am stubborn, the stubbornest of all time, perhaps. But--
[Yes. He's going to do it. Are you ready? Sing Mariah Carey!]
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[Valdis. Vulnerable. It's a hard slap to his system. He knew she hadn't been all there, but he hadn't thought too deeply on it. He knew his own desire to deal death, the power rush from killing, that sometimes the only thing he transitioned into was sex. Nobunaga shakes out his own hair, apologetically kisses between Klaus' shoulder blades so he can take his hand back, but puts one of Klaus' hands on him, constant contact, so neither of them felt lost! And scrubs out his hair with both hands. He needs to think!]
Safety because... it isn't good to use each other like addictions. I may have messed up my relationship with Valdis further back than I thought before, but this is good to know.
... Luther thinks you don't care about things? It is the exact opposite. You care the deepest, even when it's not about you, you feel the pain anyway. That is why I say you are so strong. Luther's not very... bright, is he? [Tentative placating kiss, and cleans Klaus with both hands now, and starts massaging Klaus!] I ask with love!
[As for Yato, yes! What a great God, Klaus doesn't suspect a thing!! Or is playing along. Nah, probably not.] Yato cares more about you than you realize. Not just because of me, but on your own merits. If any good came of the last two weeks, I hope you realize how many people would defend you, no matter what. And what the Captain did to him was... painful. He was nearly paralyzed, but still, you helped him. Don't underestimate that. [Kisses the shoulders, still massaging them happily! Chu!]
Just don't leave me again, I'm not strong enough a second time. That's not an ultimatum, it's a boundary. I'll try not to make it like it is only you doing something, but know, even in the heat of battle, sit on me and talk to me. Tell me everything, anything, your fears, and i will fix them. Just don't stop talking until I get it.
[There's a hard pinch of Klaus' spine at the base of the neck he's massaging at Bash's name, before he relaxes instantly. Oh wow, that's all? That's just how Klaus normally is with his friends. Okay. He kisses it apologetically, but gives a large rough bite to Klaus' shoulder purely to reassure himself that this was his husband. No letting go.]
Consent, is it?
[He addressed the safety thing, but--] I have not wanted anyone but you since we began. Or at least since Sharky's birthday. [There was only a week between, after all!] But more than that... [Both hands envelope one of Klaus' hands and hold it to his heart.] If I am sad, I cannot have sex. I must not let myself, or you, stop me from this mission until it is through. Then I will know the battle is over, the enemy spies, and their poison are routed. When I am physically one, and joined with you, I let myself feel safe. I must not until that is truly the case, or my senses will dull, and the very act itself would feel lesser. I will only accept the best, Lucky 4. From myself, and from you. No one else is the best, only you.
[Still holding both hands to his chest, he leans their foreheads together.] Valdis thought my calling her Gorgeous was for sex, it isn't. I was trying to say she had the power over me, but she probably felt it wasn't true, because I'm not able to--
Max Imum was in a bad way. High from cooking for people, feeling fulfilled so when he ran out? Useless, lost, needing someone to take control over him. I called Pratt, and Teyrey, and sent the two men mapping corners, and jogging flights of stairs. Though, I was a bit drunk, and pulled him by the tie. I couldn't help it. I can't imagine how hard it is in the future not to constantly choke anyone irksome. [Nobunaga...] This is what I mean as well, my spouse-in-crime, love of my life, soulmate by red threads of fate. It is very dangerous to mask the problem with decoration. It needs iron and rock. I will resolve every last fracture between us. And only then will I be sure that we are safe, nothing is hurting us inside out.
Did I ever tell you about Kitsuno? She died of plague. I wanted more medicine. More prosperity. [Tentatively checks on Klaus so he understands how much that does mean to him. Though Klaus once suggested it was unattainable.] And instead, the monks would tell me, it was just fate, the way of the gods. She was tortured by unseen forces, for no reason. [Turns Klaus around to kiss his forehead, rest their chests together, one hand laced again, the other cleeeeeaning!]
I still cannot abide playing by the rules of fate. You don't have to join me to still be on my side, or even protect me, but know that is where I'll be. A world that has such rules, is not a world worth respecting enough not to at least try. I am stubborn, the stubbornest of all time, perhaps. But--
[Yes. He's going to do it. Are you ready? Sing Mariah Carey!]
I will always love yooooouuuuu.