[Nobunaga laughs softly and rubs their noses together.]
I don't know what she feels for Shiranui at all. I just wanted her to let herself be vulnerable with him for both their sakes. So they'll be stronger together. He might like her romantically, but she has some really stern ideas about how she's not supposed to.
You know I don't trust people, I trust their motivations. Hideyoshi, Ieyasu, Mitsuhide, I know they'll work for our dream. Hideyoshi, I know, will try so hard to keep me alive he'll drive me crazy, because he wants me alive far more than himself. Valdis, I couldn't figure out her motivations, so that threw me all off. You, I know you know you're happier with me, so you'll protect me and fight to keep us together, but not necessarily complete my mission objectives. That gives me the freedom to be me, you to be you, and roll with it.
Tayrey is the only person I trust her, not her goals. Not what she'll do to get there. Because she's so rigid in her belief system. She thinks she can rely on codes and that is how most wars start. But Tayrey the person wants peace. She doesn't think it's like the peacekeepers, all "if you remove all freedoms, then of course there's no war." Or that you can get it by oppression and tyranny. She's almost naive in that, right? Inexperienced. Idealistic. So if her goal was to get home... I don't trust what she'd do for that. Because we've seen desperate people. But I trust her not to torture someone just because she thinks it might work. [Nod.] Her, not her goals.
Before she can even think about "actually I might be happier if I--" say was in a relationship, or "let myself do what I want right this second..." she'd have to first be willing to be happy. If she thinks happiness will get in the way of her career or long time goals? She will never ever allow herself that. She will lie to herself so much that even if she knew she loves Shiranui, she would not tell him, because she would consider it very cruel.
And she straight up thought that you wanting her to be happy? Meant you were being mean. [Finger over lips.] I know. I tried to tell her how it was getting reversed. Obviously. But anyone who wanted her to be happy on the ship weren't able to get through the barrier she put up to protect herself. That if she didn't try to get back to her duty she'd be a traitor and a monster. That if she liked it too much, it would be the worst kind of compliance with kidnappers. That anyone who did things like that were working for the enemy. She just, at least, is good enough to recognize, she really likes and trusts you more than you think, and she knows you wouldn't want her hurting. So she just kind of... [Both hands up, palms up to the ceiling as though holding something.] Assumes "people don't get it." And "severe damage" which isn't wrong but... not the best. [Laughs... shakes his head and flomps back on Klaus chest.]
Hideyoshi and Mitsuhide always butt heads. As I said, I have worried Hideyoshi would kill him if I wasn't there, but this isn't to make Mitsuhide sound incapable. He can give more than he's got. He's clever and can be nearly as sadistic as me. [Gently nips Klaus' nose!] Don't get any ideas.
I tried to tell him not to prank her too much, she's so serious. It won't go well. Maybe I didn't tell him here, I'll try again.
But well...
[Rubs noses together again.] You're still right though. I just need to let them work it out.
I think.
[Or maybe check on them.....]
Ugh. Do you think he was trying to remind me why I would never sleep with Hideyoshi? Because that nagging would be too damn much!
Ah. This is why I thought of going through withdrawal with you. I loved it. [Kisses!] I do have an addiction. But it's not to sugar, it's to you. I loved those days, your withdrawal, when we got back together, because seeing how strong you were, and it proved I love you not just for sex. [Chu! Kisses nose tip!] That's why you're my addiction. Because just talking to you I feel better, and I didn't know I wasn't fine.
[Another nuzzle.] He's probably just trying to find the new balance. And I'm sure he didn't worry it would be that big a deal to her. The one thing Hideyoshi would agree with him on... [Literally just... fucking giggles. It's so stupid.] Poor Tayrey, losing her heroic mental image of me as a perfect stoic wise commander who is very very evil, but oh so brave and fearlessly does what's right and willing to starve for his people. [Nod nod.]
[She did not, in fact, have such a mental image of him, but.... she probably didn't think he needs a constant nanny. And definitely didn't want him ~~embarrassed~~ not that he is, but she is... for him.]
[Nor did she know even before the ship he snuck sweets the way he did with Klaus and Mai.]
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I don't know what she feels for Shiranui at all. I just wanted her to let herself be vulnerable with him for both their sakes. So they'll be stronger together. He might like her romantically, but she has some really stern ideas about how she's not supposed to.
You know I don't trust people, I trust their motivations. Hideyoshi, Ieyasu, Mitsuhide, I know they'll work for our dream. Hideyoshi, I know, will try so hard to keep me alive he'll drive me crazy, because he wants me alive far more than himself. Valdis, I couldn't figure out her motivations, so that threw me all off. You, I know you know you're happier with me, so you'll protect me and fight to keep us together, but not necessarily complete my mission objectives. That gives me the freedom to be me, you to be you, and roll with it.
Tayrey is the only person I trust her, not her goals. Not what she'll do to get there. Because she's so rigid in her belief system. She thinks she can rely on codes and that is how most wars start. But Tayrey the person wants peace. She doesn't think it's like the peacekeepers, all "if you remove all freedoms, then of course there's no war." Or that you can get it by oppression and tyranny. She's almost naive in that, right? Inexperienced. Idealistic. So if her goal was to get home... I don't trust what she'd do for that. Because we've seen desperate people. But I trust her not to torture someone just because she thinks it might work. [Nod.] Her, not her goals.
Before she can even think about "actually I might be happier if I--" say was in a relationship, or "let myself do what I want right this second..." she'd have to first be willing to be happy. If she thinks happiness will get in the way of her career or long time goals? She will never ever allow herself that. She will lie to herself so much that even if she knew she loves Shiranui, she would not tell him, because she would consider it very cruel.
And she straight up thought that you wanting her to be happy? Meant you were being mean. [Finger over lips.] I know. I tried to tell her how it was getting reversed. Obviously. But anyone who wanted her to be happy on the ship weren't able to get through the barrier she put up to protect herself. That if she didn't try to get back to her duty she'd be a traitor and a monster. That if she liked it too much, it would be the worst kind of compliance with kidnappers. That anyone who did things like that were working for the enemy. She just, at least, is good enough to recognize, she really likes and trusts you more than you think, and she knows you wouldn't want her hurting. So she just kind of... [Both hands up, palms up to the ceiling as though holding something.] Assumes "people don't get it." And "severe damage" which isn't wrong but... not the best. [Laughs... shakes his head and flomps back on Klaus chest.]
Hideyoshi and Mitsuhide always butt heads. As I said, I have worried Hideyoshi would kill him if I wasn't there, but this isn't to make Mitsuhide sound incapable. He can give more than he's got. He's clever and can be nearly as sadistic as me. [Gently nips Klaus' nose!] Don't get any ideas.
I tried to tell him not to prank her too much, she's so serious. It won't go well. Maybe I didn't tell him here, I'll try again.
But well...
[Rubs noses together again.] You're still right though. I just need to let them work it out.
I think.
[Or maybe check on them.....]
Ugh. Do you think he was trying to remind me why I would never sleep with Hideyoshi? Because that nagging would be too damn much!
Ah. This is why I thought of going through withdrawal with you. I loved it. [Kisses!] I do have an addiction. But it's not to sugar, it's to you. I loved those days, your withdrawal, when we got back together, because seeing how strong you were, and it proved I love you not just for sex. [Chu! Kisses nose tip!] That's why you're my addiction. Because just talking to you I feel better, and I didn't know I wasn't fine.
[Another nuzzle.] He's probably just trying to find the new balance. And I'm sure he didn't worry it would be that big a deal to her. The one thing Hideyoshi would agree with him on... [Literally just... fucking giggles. It's so stupid.] Poor Tayrey, losing her heroic mental image of me as a perfect stoic wise commander who is very very evil, but oh so brave and fearlessly does what's right and willing to starve for his people. [Nod nod.]
[She did not, in fact, have such a mental image of him, but.... she probably didn't think he needs a constant nanny. And definitely didn't want him ~~embarrassed~~ not that he is, but she is... for him.]
[Nor did she know even before the ship he snuck sweets the way he did with Klaus and Mai.]