I'm pretty sure she'd stab me for that, but I'll take it under advisement.
Do you want to see anything else? [Pokes Klaus' cheek! And burrows in for more snuggles.]
She already knew I care about her for her. That wasn't the problem. [Reaches over Klaus to scroll further back to his message to her. Also included is his drunk poem about Teyrey.] The problem is, like I said, she reacted like me, and I'm the harshest on myself.
Oh, I forgot I said that too.
[More gentle kisses to Klaus cheeks and sucks on the ear shell while Klaus can read.]
I'm trying not to fight myself. That also means, her. But it's not just, oh I want to be in love with her, because I don't. I don't want to love myself. I mean I already do, but violently. I want to not fight her or myself. But I still want to be me. I'm very bitey. [And yet here he is snuggling and very gentle, NOT biting Klaus right now. Go figure.]
It's not just that I don't want to fight her, it's that specific part in both of us. Because then I'll be stronger than the Captain, and all the other versions of myself. Remember how Five would kill his other self? Well me too. But if I can avoid that, then I'll be the strongest version. It's sort of stupid to explain. [Huff.]
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Date: 2023-01-13 02:55 am (UTC)Do you want to see anything else? [Pokes Klaus' cheek! And burrows in for more snuggles.]
She already knew I care about her for her. That wasn't the problem. [Reaches over Klaus to scroll further back to his message to her. Also included is his drunk poem about Teyrey.] The problem is, like I said, she reacted like me, and I'm the harshest on myself.
Oh, I forgot I said that too.
[More gentle kisses to Klaus cheeks and sucks on the ear shell while Klaus can read.]
I'm trying not to fight myself. That also means, her. But it's not just, oh I want to be in love with her, because I don't. I don't want to love myself. I mean I already do, but violently. I want to not fight her or myself. But I still want to be me. I'm very bitey. [And yet here he is snuggling and very gentle, NOT biting Klaus right now. Go figure.]
It's not just that I don't want to fight her, it's that specific part in both of us. Because then I'll be stronger than the Captain, and all the other versions of myself. Remember how Five would kill his other self? Well me too. But if I can avoid that, then I'll be the strongest version. It's sort of stupid to explain. [Huff.]