[Dying. What an amazing analogy. It's so gross, and yet--]
I don't want to fuck. You want to try the sauna?
I want to be with you, especially because it's that bad and you don't feel like sex. If it was just sex, I wouldn't come back. I mean it is the best sex x Infinity ever, but still, I love you for you, not your sex appeal.
[Just joins him, holds the clammy hand, and a hug anyway.] You're the strongest person I've ever met. You've been through this before? How long does it usually last in rehab?
I love you. And you're not getting rid of me. You're my partner, we do this together, okay?
Yes. I've done this before. But only really in rehab. Which is...probably safer. [Are they anxious about what might happen? Yeah. Yeah, they are.] Uh...like depends. I've really only been there for months at a time. I...this is going to be a while, I think. Not like forever. It feels like forever, though. But it's not this I'm worried about. I can deal with sweaty and tremors. It's the...I don't really want to deal with the seizures or...anything...the DTs can get bad, but I don't think...I've never had them before, so...I hope it stays that way.
[They sigh, resting their head against him for a time.] I feel sick. Not like...I'll actually throw up, but...ugh. Eating is the worst thing to even think about...but I know I have to...but I also don't want to.
When was the last time you ate? It might be better to just wait until the worst passes. But you have to drink tea or something. Maybe broth? [Gently puts Klaus' head in his lap and strokes his hair. Pretty.]
[Klaus squints before shrugging.] I honestly don’t even know what time it is right now.
[They close their eyes and make only the faintest sound of discontent as they’re moved, but that’s mostly because everything hurts and nothing is okay. Also they’re feeling hot again.] Uggghhh. I’ll probably die if I eat. I might be dead already.
You're not dead yet. You just wish. [More gentle pets and an even more gentle forehead kiss!] A little longer, Babe. It'll be okay. [Squeezes their hand!]
Mmm. It would be easier. [Someone’s being a dramatic little bitch right now. Their eyes are closed, but that’s more about the general desire not to see too much.] Can we lie down. I know I’m gross, but I want to just lie next to you for a little bit. Maybe I’ll feel less sick in a minute. Or I’ll…I dunno. Feel less achey.
[There’s a soft sigh] I feel like an army of very small people has punched me everywhere on my body. All my muscles. [There’s absolutely no hiding the way their hands are shaking or the twitching muscles. It’s uncomfortable to say the least.]
I'll never stop being impressed with how strong you are.
Don't try so hard, Babe. It's okay to just survive for now. Let me take care of the rest. You never really let me do that, you know? Not when it counts.
Jan whatever after they're back together but when they're not sleeping in the same bed
[He has trouble sleeping again.]
[It's fine though.]
[Texts back]
I bet you thought you’d seen the last of meKlaus is also not sleeping]should i like…always expect these things?
cause i might never sleep at this rate.
i’m sweaty and gross and i hate this
Text
Yes, you should. I didn't want to haiku. And random drum solos just sound like noise still.
I bet you're cute.
I want to be there. Are you sure it's better like this?
no subject
it’s just clammy and sweaty and also i hate everything and everyone. not like for keeps. just…ugggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i would fight. and i can’t sleep cause i’m sweaty and achey and my hands keep shaking. stupid hands.
you don’t want to be here for this. it’s the least sexy i’ve ever been and i don’t even want to fuck anyway. i want to sleep and i can’t.
i hate it here. can i go back? it’s fine, right?
no subject
I don't want to fuck. You want to try the sauna?
I want to be with you, especially because it's that bad and you don't feel like sex. If it was just sex, I wouldn't come back. I mean it is the best sex x Infinity ever, but still, I love you for you, not your sex appeal.
I'll serenade you. I'll be your lap pillow.
no subject
uggggghhhh. i regret everything i’ve ever done.
i don’t even want to move. or walk or eat or exist. it’s so bad.
no subject
no subject
bleeeeeehhhhhhhhh.
don’t look at me. but also i guess. but how can i open the door like this?
no subject
no subject
it’s not cute! it’s gross!
no subject
no subject
no subject
no subject
ugh
maybe kill me.
this is like after that time that ben possessed me and then i was sweaty and i threw up my own brother and everything was pea soup.
no subject
no subject
no subject
[Lets himself in, like he said. He even brought minimal weapons!]
no subject
There’s a light sheen of sweat over his skin and his hair is unwashed and sticking to his face. The vibe is sick and unkempt.]
You’re here. Hi.
no subject
[Just joins him, holds the clammy hand, and a hug anyway.] You're the strongest person I've ever met. You've been through this before? How long does it usually last in rehab?
I love you. And you're not getting rid of me. You're my partner, we do this together, okay?
no subject
Yes. I've done this before. But only really in rehab. Which is...probably safer. [Are they anxious about what might happen? Yeah. Yeah, they are.] Uh...like depends. I've really only been there for months at a time. I...this is going to be a while, I think. Not like forever. It feels like forever, though. But it's not this I'm worried about. I can deal with sweaty and tremors. It's the...I don't really want to deal with the seizures or...anything...the DTs can get bad, but I don't think...I've never had them before, so...I hope it stays that way.
[They sigh, resting their head against him for a time.] I feel sick. Not like...I'll actually throw up, but...ugh. Eating is the worst thing to even think about...but I know I have to...but I also don't want to.
no subject
When was the last time you ate? It might be better to just wait until the worst passes. But you have to drink tea or something. Maybe broth? [Gently puts Klaus' head in his lap and strokes his hair. Pretty.]
no subject
[They close their eyes and make only the faintest sound of discontent as they’re moved, but that’s mostly because everything hurts and nothing is okay. Also they’re feeling hot again.] Uggghhh. I’ll probably die if I eat. I might be dead already.
Except then why does everything still hurt?
no subject
You're not dead yet. You just wish. [More gentle pets and an even more gentle forehead kiss!] A little longer, Babe. It'll be okay. [Squeezes their hand!]
no subject
Mmm. It would be easier. [Someone’s being a dramatic little bitch right now. Their eyes are closed, but that’s more about the general desire not to see too much.] Can we lie down. I know I’m gross, but I want to just lie next to you for a little bit. Maybe I’ll feel less sick in a minute. Or I’ll…I dunno. Feel less achey.
[There’s a soft sigh] I feel like an army of very small people has punched me everywhere on my body. All my muscles. [There’s absolutely no hiding the way their hands are shaking or the twitching muscles. It’s uncomfortable to say the least.]
no subject
I'll never stop being impressed with how strong you are.
Don't try so hard, Babe. It's okay to just survive for now. Let me take care of the rest. You never really let me do that, you know? Not when it counts.
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)