[Just joins him, holds the clammy hand, and a hug anyway.] You're the strongest person I've ever met. You've been through this before? How long does it usually last in rehab?
I love you. And you're not getting rid of me. You're my partner, we do this together, okay?
Yes. I've done this before. But only really in rehab. Which is...probably safer. [Are they anxious about what might happen? Yeah. Yeah, they are.] Uh...like depends. I've really only been there for months at a time. I...this is going to be a while, I think. Not like forever. It feels like forever, though. But it's not this I'm worried about. I can deal with sweaty and tremors. It's the...I don't really want to deal with the seizures or...anything...the DTs can get bad, but I don't think...I've never had them before, so...I hope it stays that way.
[They sigh, resting their head against him for a time.] I feel sick. Not like...I'll actually throw up, but...ugh. Eating is the worst thing to even think about...but I know I have to...but I also don't want to.
When was the last time you ate? It might be better to just wait until the worst passes. But you have to drink tea or something. Maybe broth? [Gently puts Klaus' head in his lap and strokes his hair. Pretty.]
[Klaus squints before shrugging.] I honestly don’t even know what time it is right now.
[They close their eyes and make only the faintest sound of discontent as they’re moved, but that’s mostly because everything hurts and nothing is okay. Also they’re feeling hot again.] Uggghhh. I’ll probably die if I eat. I might be dead already.
You're not dead yet. You just wish. [More gentle pets and an even more gentle forehead kiss!] A little longer, Babe. It'll be okay. [Squeezes their hand!]
Mmm. It would be easier. [Someone’s being a dramatic little bitch right now. Their eyes are closed, but that’s more about the general desire not to see too much.] Can we lie down. I know I’m gross, but I want to just lie next to you for a little bit. Maybe I’ll feel less sick in a minute. Or I’ll…I dunno. Feel less achey.
[There’s a soft sigh] I feel like an army of very small people has punched me everywhere on my body. All my muscles. [There’s absolutely no hiding the way their hands are shaking or the twitching muscles. It’s uncomfortable to say the least.]
I'll never stop being impressed with how strong you are.
Don't try so hard, Babe. It's okay to just survive for now. Let me take care of the rest. You never really let me do that, you know? Not when it counts.
I don’t care. Not me on the bottom, though. [They just want to be held and to feel like maybe they’re okay for a minute. Even if they’re decidedly not okay.]
I’m not strong. I’m gross.
[He frowns slightly, looking at Nobunaga for a moment. This is a cute moment and he’s thankful for the support. Thankful for the allowance to just exist without expectations. But they didn’t really ever view themselves as a person that didn’t let others handle things for them.] I don’t? I kind of thought I always sort of just let things happen. Like however.
[A soft laugh. Nobunaga gently picks him up oh so tenderly, sits on the end of the couch, and sets Klaus lying down, head still in his lap.]
You're beautiful. I've never known anyone stronger.
No, you don't. You say you will, and then don't. I said I'd take care of things, and you didn't let me. And this time, I nearly had to beg to come back. [Lightly feathers Klaus' hair!] It can't be helped, but things are different now, so just try it. You might like it.
[Klaus just carefully reaches out, fingers lightly starting to grasp the fabric of his pants. They’re just carefully turn themselves to face Nobunaga’s stomach, pressing his face against it lightly.]
Oh. I didn’t mean to make you beg to help. [They let their eyes close again.] I just didn’t want to bother you. [But he was always letting people lean on him and…] Okay. I love you.
[Kisses the top of his head gently.] I love you too.
I just figured you didn't want me to see you like this, or you were worried I couldn't handle it, but I love this side too. I want all of you. I'm selfish. And you shouldn't do this alone. [Pets!] None of your siblings ever sat through this with you?
[Even Nobunaga sat through one of his brother's withdrawals. And his samurai. But it's probably different as the leader of the clan. Then again, Regi...? Well... no.]
I…well, I guess I worried you wouldn’t want to. That you’d hate it. And…also cause this is the least attractive I’ve been…maybe. Not counting throwing up twice. In front of you. [Talk about embarrassing.]
Hm? Oh. We weren’t really talking most of the time?? I guess. Ben was usually the one stuck with me and the one going through it because…well…you know. Ghosts and me.
[Floofs Klaus' hair.] Wasn't ghosts the reason you did drugs? [He's not sure that's helpful... considering.]
[But okay. He'll thank Ben. Maybe?]
I don't know if you've noticed Klaus, but it's very difficult to make me do something I don't want to.
[Ahahahahaha it's funny because it's literally why he dies repeatedly and stuff.]
You should ask anyway. [Flooooofing the hair!] I have let you see me at my worst. Do not think I am so weak I would be happy abandoning you when you need me most. If anything... it is the opposite. You are always my strength, I want to be yours. I said before, did I not? No more one-sided-ness. We are doing things for each other because we want to.
And I think you're gorgeous. [Another gentle kiss to the temple.] I would be in love with you even if I had to be celibate. Though I'm sure we'd both break quickly. [A small laugh.]
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Date: 2023-01-09 06:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-09 06:56 am (UTC)bleeeeeehhhhhhhhh.
don’t look at me. but also i guess. but how can i open the door like this?
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Date: 2023-01-09 07:42 am (UTC)it’s not cute! it’s gross!
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Date: 2023-01-09 08:25 am (UTC)ugh
maybe kill me.
this is like after that time that ben possessed me and then i was sweaty and i threw up my own brother and everything was pea soup.
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Date: 2023-01-09 01:46 pm (UTC)[Lets himself in, like he said. He even brought minimal weapons!]
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Date: 2023-01-09 06:00 pm (UTC)There’s a light sheen of sweat over his skin and his hair is unwashed and sticking to his face. The vibe is sick and unkempt.]
You’re here. Hi.
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Date: 2023-01-09 07:23 pm (UTC)[Just joins him, holds the clammy hand, and a hug anyway.] You're the strongest person I've ever met. You've been through this before? How long does it usually last in rehab?
I love you. And you're not getting rid of me. You're my partner, we do this together, okay?
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Date: 2023-01-10 01:23 am (UTC)Yes. I've done this before. But only really in rehab. Which is...probably safer. [Are they anxious about what might happen? Yeah. Yeah, they are.] Uh...like depends. I've really only been there for months at a time. I...this is going to be a while, I think. Not like forever. It feels like forever, though. But it's not this I'm worried about. I can deal with sweaty and tremors. It's the...I don't really want to deal with the seizures or...anything...the DTs can get bad, but I don't think...I've never had them before, so...I hope it stays that way.
[They sigh, resting their head against him for a time.] I feel sick. Not like...I'll actually throw up, but...ugh. Eating is the worst thing to even think about...but I know I have to...but I also don't want to.
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Date: 2023-01-10 05:47 am (UTC)When was the last time you ate? It might be better to just wait until the worst passes. But you have to drink tea or something. Maybe broth? [Gently puts Klaus' head in his lap and strokes his hair. Pretty.]
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Date: 2023-01-10 06:08 am (UTC)[They close their eyes and make only the faintest sound of discontent as they’re moved, but that’s mostly because everything hurts and nothing is okay. Also they’re feeling hot again.] Uggghhh. I’ll probably die if I eat. I might be dead already.
Except then why does everything still hurt?
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Date: 2023-01-10 06:48 am (UTC)You're not dead yet. You just wish. [More gentle pets and an even more gentle forehead kiss!] A little longer, Babe. It'll be okay. [Squeezes their hand!]
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Date: 2023-01-10 07:18 am (UTC)Mmm. It would be easier. [Someone’s being a dramatic little bitch right now. Their eyes are closed, but that’s more about the general desire not to see too much.] Can we lie down. I know I’m gross, but I want to just lie next to you for a little bit. Maybe I’ll feel less sick in a minute. Or I’ll…I dunno. Feel less achey.
[There’s a soft sigh] I feel like an army of very small people has punched me everywhere on my body. All my muscles. [There’s absolutely no hiding the way their hands are shaking or the twitching muscles. It’s uncomfortable to say the least.]
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Date: 2023-01-10 08:11 am (UTC)I'll never stop being impressed with how strong you are.
Don't try so hard, Babe. It's okay to just survive for now. Let me take care of the rest. You never really let me do that, you know? Not when it counts.
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Date: 2023-01-10 08:49 am (UTC)I’m not strong. I’m gross.
[He frowns slightly, looking at Nobunaga for a moment. This is a cute moment and he’s thankful for the support. Thankful for the allowance to just exist without expectations. But they didn’t really ever view themselves as a person that didn’t let others handle things for them.] I don’t? I kind of thought I always sort of just let things happen. Like however.
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Date: 2023-01-10 08:59 am (UTC)You're beautiful. I've never known anyone stronger.
No, you don't. You say you will, and then don't. I said I'd take care of things, and you didn't let me. And this time, I nearly had to beg to come back. [Lightly feathers Klaus' hair!] It can't be helped, but things are different now, so just try it. You might like it.
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Date: 2023-01-10 09:17 am (UTC)Oh. I didn’t mean to make you beg to help. [They let their eyes close again.] I just didn’t want to bother you. [But he was always letting people lean on him and…] Okay. I love you.
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Date: 2023-01-10 09:55 am (UTC)[Kisses the top of his head gently.] I love you too.
I just figured you didn't want me to see you like this, or you were worried I couldn't handle it, but I love this side too. I want all of you. I'm selfish. And you shouldn't do this alone. [Pets!] None of your siblings ever sat through this with you?
[Even Nobunaga sat through one of his brother's withdrawals. And his samurai. But it's probably different as the leader of the clan. Then again, Regi...? Well... no.]
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Date: 2023-01-10 10:17 am (UTC)Hm? Oh. We weren’t really talking most of the time?? I guess. Ben was usually the one stuck with me and the one going through it because…well…you know. Ghosts and me.
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Date: 2023-01-10 11:28 am (UTC)[But okay. He'll thank Ben. Maybe?]
I don't know if you've noticed Klaus, but it's very difficult to make me do something I don't want to.
[Ahahahahaha it's funny because it's literally why he dies repeatedly and stuff.]
You should ask anyway. [Flooooofing the hair!] I have let you see me at my worst. Do not think I am so weak I would be happy abandoning you when you need me most. If anything... it is the opposite. You are always my strength, I want to be yours. I said before, did I not? No more one-sided-ness. We are doing things for each other because we want to.
And I think you're gorgeous. [Another gentle kiss to the temple.] I would be in love with you even if I had to be celibate. Though I'm sure we'd both break quickly. [A small laugh.]
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