I'd like to think I could, but I didn't end up killing anyone. I went to fight Yuuki -- whoever was possessing him, and got bitten instead. Blademaster Vance and I were trying to find a way to get the ghosts what they want other than just our bodies, and we failed. I couldn't kill Chase, or Pickles, or whoever was inside Tear. I'd miss you the most though... so... [A shrug.] Maybe that would make a difference.
[The rest takes some processing.]
[Finally Nobunaga just pulls Klaus forward for a rough kiss.] Hard lines, is it?
You will always have to tell me what you expect. [Gods, jealousy is just... such a pain in the ass. It's there. He can feel it. And easily ignore it.] I already know I'm the best. [The best at being Demon King of 6th Heaven. But if Klaus doesn't want that...]
[A head tilt.] I will never restrict your freedom. Breaking the castes, breaking people's conditioning and brainwashing is part of this. I know your... cult [A flicker.] you are used to a lot of people holding you up as a god. Loving you constantly. It is not so different, I am used to a country full. Well, most of Japan hates me, but good enough.
[Ugh words. Feelings. Part of him feels like going icy again. Detached. What does it matter to him if Klaus gets coffee with a demigod? Things Nobunaga wants to do. There's enough time and the balance between being tyrannical and overbearing...]
[A forced feral grin.] But do not think your neck will escape so unscathed to tell stories of whose bed you were last in.
[Klaus gives him a small look] I don't think that there was anything else they wanted. But I think if push came to shove, you would have done it. If not, someone would have done it for you.
[There's a soft moan at the kiss.] Yes. Boundaries. You're allowed to have them. For this. For us.
[Klaus doesn't want him to feel like he has to accept it. He can be okay.] You are the best. [There's a smile at that.] Which is why you're my boyfriend. [There's a small frown at the rest of it.]
I don't want to be a god or worshipped as one. That's why I ran away in the first place. I just...it just sort of happened. [Another frown] I know that I'm more open. That I don't mind if you're fucking someone else, but...
[How to explain this.] I don't want to conquer anyone else's heart and I don't want to give mine to anyone else. And I don't want you to conquer someone else's heart either. But if you say no, that's it. I'm just clarifying so nothing happens that fucks things up. This isn't all about me.
[He studies him quietly.] I've only been in your bed and mine alone. No one else's.
[... The rest is overwhelming. He flickers through a whole spectrum of emotions. Happy about being Klaus' boyfriend. Literally sparkling about it, he's so pleased.]
[And then blushing a million ways to Sunday. Flustered because he doesn't want to bother with anyone else, he hasn't finished with Klaus. It's all a luxury he couldn't afford, because the price would have gone against his ambitions before. Been too dangerous.]
[The last line he's back to blushing and hides his head face ducking into Klaus' shoulder.]
You're asking something of me I do not know I can do. I do not know how I'll feel until I do. It takes... time for me. So many things get factored. Weighed. Pushed against each other like bricks in a wall until I am as sure of it as I am of a brick wall. [A small grunt, and he just closes his eyes, breathing Klaus in quietly, trying to sort it all out. Emotions.]
[What he wants. Klaus to be free and happy. That part's easy. The hard part is how to get there. Freedom. He holds Klaus' hands in both of his own.]
It's good to have friends. I said before, it's my pride to know I'm the best, so I have nothing to be concerned about. But I am still phenomenally greedy. I want to carry you all around the ship and never let you go. Steal every moment of your time because you are like a banner in war so I always know the direction of my progress. When I do things without you, it's like you're missing and I hate that I cannot instantly summon you with a snap of my fingers. [Huff. Pout.]
I cannot have you all to myself and you should not let me attempt such a thing either. [A kiss to Klaus forehead, and he drags him over to towels to gently towel him off and wring the hair carefully.]
I cannot put restrictions on you for... nearly anything. I can only say, come to me as you will, and then have confidence in my skills to satisfy you. Tch. [He STILL can't hug. But he settles for leaning his forehead to Klaus' again.] It is my hard line. When I train hawks, I do not bind them ever. I give them shelter, treats, training, and they come when I whistle because they know I am the best at getting them hunting, much better than on their own. My army too. That is my pride. That all of my soldiers, and everyone employed in my care, couldn't possibly do better elsewhere, because I'm simply the best. What that means for you... [A long drawn out kiss! All emotions, the conflicted frustration with himself for not knowing himself well enough to advise, for being flustered by simple things, for being so inexperienced, for any shreds of resentment or jealousy he might harbor -- he wants to be happy and supportive, so why can't he just do that?] You will have to find out yourself and tell me. [A follow up kiss too!]
Rolling contract. One day at a time. If one day you need to change it, you'll tell me. And have faith in my overconfidence to handle whatever makes you happiest and freest. So you can be your best possible flying tiger and live up to your potential.
[Klaus wants, more than ever, to stress something] I'm not saying anything has to happen. I'm opening up the channels for a conversation. And...it's not restrictions. [He tilts his head to rest on Nobunaga's shoulder.] You're more important to me than any hot guy out there. [And Bash is so hot] Maybe I can't give you every second of my time because I still want to do...at least some things. Hang out with Ava, do whatever...
[They grab Nobunaga's hand to kiss at the knuckles.] Honest communication is kind of important in these sort of situations. So if you're not comfortable with anything...you can tell me that and I'll respect that boundary. Like the safewords.
[It's nice to be cared for and...well, he feels a little guilt for considering it without checking first, but things had been so...all over the place. But...] I really like you. [And that's just them leaning over to carefully snuggle up to his neck.] So I want anything that happens moving forward to work for both of us. If that's monogamy, then it's monogamy. Okay? And let me re-emphasize that is doesn't make you a bad person or overly restrictive to not like the idea of me with someone else. Maybe that's...just something we explore together or not at all? Like if, for some very unlikely reason, Tendi thought we were both hot and...you know...we decided to all three be together.
If you need to take time to think about it and see where your feelings are, that's okay, but don't just... [Have some vague gesturing.] Act like it's okay to appease me. [A wince] That's not the right word, but...don't feel like that's what you're doing. I know that I'm okay with you sleeping with someone because you're pretty obvious in how you feel about me and all that. If my feelings for you change, I'll let you know, but I...you're important to me, okay?
[A beat] You're very strong and intimidating...even when you're being soft. Your enemies would be quaking. [Something they hope smooths over any possibly ruffled feathers.]
[His parents didn't do that, did anyone? Obviously some must. His hawks did, but it wasn't out of devotion as much as circumstances. This is different, because they're humans, and their lives are their own, and with a broader selection of possibilities by far, even within the scope of just those on the ship..]
Go on the date. I can't know I'm the best if you never taste anything else. Tea and coffee, right? I can't truly say tea is the best until I try coffee too. [But he's kind of sure of it. That tea is better. But he can't qualify that without trying both anyway.]
What's so hot about him anyway? [He tries to remember what Jeff, the real Jeff, said about him. It was heavily colored through emotions, and colors, and Nobunaga tries to sort it, but cannot. It doesn't matter. He can't imagine dating Jeff at all. Not because of monogamy, but because Jeff reminded him so much of a baby brother. Maybe even one of Ranmaru's brothers.]
[He pins Klaus down to the floor, both arms above their head again. He'll move them to the bed or sofa again in a bit, but for now...]
[Small kisses to Klaus' face.] I'm not soft. [A small laugh and a tiny nip to Klaus' jawline.] I'm not being soft. [Maybe he is. Neither the fire or ice, just where they meet, instead of a typhoon, almost negating each other. Who knows? Not Nobunaga.]
Communication. I will need your help. This is another time thing. I feel like a caveman. "Monogamy." This is not a -- [He rolls a hand on his wrist before gently lacing through Klaus' hair and leaning back, he should get a hairbrush for him. Klaus is like a horse with a very pretty mane and brushing is important!] It's not a thing I know much about. Marriage in my time is purely political. [Can't look at Klaus in the eyes, he's too... flustered. Not shy, or embarrassed, but nervous. Unsure. It's stepping on the edge of a cliff, he can't just stomp about loudly like an oni or he'll fall.] It's financial and about heirs. I know... in the future it's about deepening relationships. [Rubs the back of his head, and returns with a brush, holding it up questioningly to Klaus to wait for permission.]
I know what I want. Right now, this second. For the future... I know some things.
I don't just like you. But even if you say it's not restrictive... That you are strong enough not to let me do anything you don't want... Tch. [Offers to lace his fingers with Klaus'.] It is me who is not strong enough. I have to say do what you will, or else... [A head shake.] Or else I will become what I fight against. How I'll feel about it... [A head tilt.] I don't know yet. I know I only want the best. You. [Pokes Klaus' forehead.] Deputy Pratt said you were like different timeline twins of each other. But I cannot imagine wanting to have sex with him, or even anyone else at all.
There's less children in the future, so that the ones that do exist are more doted on. Less worries about their survival. Partners is like this, is it not? I don't want to deal with more than just one tiger who pretends to be a kitten while getting into so much trouble. I can handle Pratt as a samurai, but not as a -- anything sexual or romantic. And yeah, Tendi's hot. [A head tilt.] But you'll have to teach me everything about... stuff like that.
Go on the date, and then... if you want to do anything, just keep me updated. [Nods.] I will take time. I am still quite used to... always having my own way, so it's a new way of thinking. You're my only partner though. What you want that to mean... you have to decide. If I'm not the best, then I will do something to get stronger, but that is not your fault if it is insufficient, understood?
[He laughs.] I dunno. It's just the vibe. His whole vibe. But there's a lot of hot people on this boat. Not that I want to sleep with all of them. Just an...awareness of hotness. [Diana, Tendi, Bash, Pratt. A lot of hot people. Even that Lucius guy was kind of hot. If Clara hadn't been his first real friend on the ship, he's pretty sure she'd have fallen in the same category. But...eh.]
[There's a small noise of surprise as he's pinned, but he looks up, trying to focus on the conversation at hand and not the desire pooling in his stomach. God. He's so hot right now that it's ridiculous.] Oh. Forgive me. How could I be so foolish. Of course you're not. [And really, he just wants to lean into this and forget the conversation, forget everything else.]
So you weren't meant to marry for love. [Klaus has seen movies. He got pretty bored with the Jane Austen stuff, but he's seen so many of Allison's movies and things she's suggested to him.] Monogamy is just...you only want to be with one person. And that's fine. Did you...would you have had a wife and...like someone on the side or just...a wife?
[I don't just like you. They clear their throat for a moment.] Don't just like me. [They're aware they sound like a parrot, but it narrows the world slightly.] You aren't like them, by the way. You're so much better and kinder than the people you've been fighting against and I know that you feel like you're nothing more than an evil, dangerous person, but...it's not true. You're good. You are. [So, yes, he will take his hand, lace their fingers together. If someone taking the time to wash his hair and brush it afterwards isn't soft and good, Klaus doesn't know what is.]
Not into Pratt, huh? I mean, I would probably fuck myself if given half a chance, so...I can't say anything about anything, really. [Yep. He just said that to someone not his siblings.] There was a chance that it could have happened. Even with the paradox syndrome thing. At least I wasn't Diego. He was just gonna kill himself. Like a psycho.
[But right. This is...a serious conversation.] Okay. I'll get the coffee, but I'm not calling it a date for now. But right now...I want us to be together.
No I -- Politics, remember? I specifically avoided a wife, because I didn't want to fuck up the country like King Henry VIII. Though apparently England did fine, and no one knows enough history to tell me how and why. Is it pirates? Did Spain and Portugal fuck up? If it was pirates, how did marriage between men get banned in America? [Spreads both hands. He's getting off topic, but he wants to understand.] No wife, no heirs. I would have married Kichou if he agreed, but he is not a masochist, and it would be a political alliance. [Sigh.] My father had... more than just my mother, yeah. They only got married when I was six? I think it might have been related to him taking me into battle now that I think of it. [A headshake.] It's worse for royalty, but even Hideyoshis' parents weren't dissimilar.
Love is... [The words stick in his throat and gah... what are you even saying, Klaus?]
[He takes Klaus' hand, but just bops their cheeks gently.] Nothing about me is kind. [Kind. Kind? Kind... Nope. The disconnect is stronger. He wonders if this is how Klaus feels when he praises Klaus' strength. The whole world has told them, reinforced the opposite belief for so long that to believe otherwise might as well be impossible.] Good.... [Just... ARCHES EYEBROWS. Klaus, he is proud of you killing him, that's not kind, is it?]
[He'll just focus on brushing Klaus' mane ever so gently.]
[And he laughs at the idea of Klaus fucking themself.] I would like to see that. Two Klaus having sex. But you would both be expecting the other to do what you want, and not doing it yourself. So it would be very cute, and a little lazy. [Extra cute.] I would definitely be like Diego. I would kill another version of myself. Not because I hate myself, but I would only want the strongest version of me to survive and carry on both our ambitions and responsibilities.
Isn't it a date? [Shit, but he's blushing at that.] Yeah. I want... this. You. Only you. Tsk... [Kisses Klaus' shoulder!] I suspect you might be happy if I give you a stronger barrier. To say "don't do this," so you can live up to my expectations. [Tugs Klaus in close and rests his chin on his shoulder, one hand around their waist and stomach.] But silly Lucky 4, you always exceed my expectations in every way.
[The body language is saying a lot. And for someone that insists that he's pretty dumb, Klaus is also pretty observant. He's making a mental note that no, Nobunaga is not actually okay with other partners. Which, he was gathering, but...yeah. Well, at least they had this talk and he knows about it.]
[There's a shrug about the whole pirates and Spain rambling. He doesn't know why.] So that's just the way of things? It sounds a little sad. [They've felt love and how strong it was and Dave was...everything to them once. It's hard to think of them.]
[This is exactly how it feels when he's praised.] You are. [A beat.] Love is what?
[But he hums happily at the brushing, leaning against him.]
Hey. I would totally rock my own world. Don't question me. [They lightly swat him.] I don't really like you being dead, but...I guess it does make sense for you.
I guess? But...I think it doesn't really...matter. Friendly coffee experience is just as well. [The blush is a good sign. Better than all the other expressions from before] I like it when you're bossy. [A little smile, but he's made his decision. He leans back just enough to make sure to look Nobunaga in the eyes, fingers on either side of his face.] I want you.
[Love is... hard to put words to for him. He skips the words for now and kisses Klaus intensely instead.]
Then should you ever duplicate, I will command you to demonstrate your ultimate techniques so I can improve upon them and 'rock your world' even better. Mufufufu...
[More kisses and back to pinning Klaus aggressively, nipping all around his neck.] It is truly a strain for me not to be commanding, always.
If I were to tell you 'I love you,' would you be upset? [That way if it makes Klaus want to run away for coffee even more... then he should say it. To give Klaus the most opportunity to make up his own mind, regardless of Nobunaga.]
[There's a laugh at that.] Oh, so you want to be the best at it, huh? [It's hot.] I'll be sure to let you know what's working for me.
[They arch up just slightly, head tilting back at the feeling of teeth on his neck. There's a small moan.] Feel free to tell me what to do. Here. Now.
[And then everything goes off kilter and his eyes flutter open.] You...love me? [It's not upset. Confused, sure, but not upset. But there's something else underneath all of it. A sort of yearning that he's not sure how to explain.] Say it again. [He looks at him again.] No question.
I love you, idiot. If that means I have to share you, I'll suffer the consequences, but don't think I'll ever hold back! I'm nowhere near finished with you. I want to be the one who brings you the most pleasure, everything you think you don't deserve. [All the teeth on neck! And kisses too!]
I love you. Baka. [Chu!] Don't you ever forget it.
[He's overwhelmed. Well, not overwhelmed so much as just...feeling a lot at once.] I... [There's another soft moan.] Please. [Please what? He doesn't know.
And again. He doesn't mean to like it so much. And he's trying to figure out his feelings at the same time. Love. The part of their mind that would argue is flatlining.] I won't. [They look up at Nobunaga for a moment.] I want... [A beat.] I need you.
[Oh well, if Nobunaga's going to get rewarded for it...]
[He kisses their lips, and gently slides his fingers along the inside of Klaus' thighs.]
I love you. I love your deceptive strength. I love every inane story about your past and present. I love your secret brilliance. I love you, and the way you always act so freely, you're so brave and bold, so many things I wish I could be. I love the way you move, like you're forever dancing to music in your heart, and I want to conquer it so I can hear it too. I love you for being ridiculous, and doing things even when you hate them, because it makes me feel like maybe I can be capable of more too. [Chu!]
[He begins covering Klaus on kisses, focusing on the bruises, very gently as if he can heal them, but then all over, claiming and conquering territory, leaving small marks in places that won't be instantly visible, but Klaus will always be stuck knowing about.]
I love how you get into trouble and act like you're trying to avoid it. I love you, because everyone who meets you is charmed enough to follow you like a cult, and just like the trouble: you haven't the faintest idea what you did. [All the kisses!] I love that for you... I'll try anything, no matter how my mind first reacts. No matter how I think. The stupid J-Idol moves, and I'm so proud of you for being that strong and fearless, even you see the best in everyone else in a way I can only envy. If my dream is to free everyone here, then loving you is every bit a part of it.
I love you, because whether I'm a demon, possessed, mass murderer, and all the rest, you seem utterly determined to charm me like everyone else, so for you, being a pet lion king doesn't seem so bad. [Bites Klaus' neck, NOM!] I love that I cannot predict you, and I feel no need to. [Deep breath!!]
[He should maybe shut up soon.]
I'm sorry I couldn't punish you properly. Please accept the humble gift of this blackened demon-gnawed heart instead. You can leave it on a shelf as a trophy if you wish. Just know, I do love you. And I've never told anyone that before. Maybe I never will again, but if I do, it'll only be because you make it so easy to.
[He's not jealous of Dave, more grateful. And although he loved Kitsuno to pieces, he couldn't ever tell her, because she was dying, and it seemed like a severe burden just for his own torment. And don't get him started on siblings.]
[Their breath hitches, legs instinctively moving further apart.] Shit.
[The words are enough on their own, but the kisses and markings on top of them leave him a mostly quivering mess because he both wants him to just fuck him already or draw it out until he can't stand it. It's a lot all at once. But not a bad a lot and...despite their habit of pushing things and people away and generally being unable to take a compliment to save themself...this doesn't make him want to stare awkwardly into space.]
Blackened, huh? [There's a soft laugh.] But if you- [A subtle shift.] If you want to punish me. [Right. Got to get his thoughts together.] Touching and kissing and the little bites everywhere but where I want you to until I can't stand it usually gets me going. And just...make it rough. At the end. A little mix of gentle and rough to get started. [Because woops. He did kind of miss the punishment.] If you want. I'll also accept if you can't wait and want to make it rough now.
[ALL THE SMUG SMIRKS.] And this is what I love about you most of all.
[Gentle tender kisses, mixed with abrupt nippy bites all up the inside of Klaus' legs, following through on his promise. The fingers massaging Klaus like polishing one of his weapons, caressing the outside of their legs, as if controlling their entire bloodflow, making sure it continued circulating, and intimating he could cut it off in an instant if he so chose.]
Your strength and boldness in pursuing whatever you want, consequences be damned, making an ally of the pain so you always the master of your body since your mind will not always obey. [CHU!] But I shall let you in on a secret again.
[Reaches all the way up to the back of Klaus' head to pull them forward to kiss brutally hard, following up with gentle bites and kisses down their throat.] I can make any part of you obey me. [THAT Is also probably NOT a secret. WHATEVER.]
[This is a mixture of heaven and hell all in one and Klaus can't stop the moans and whimpers that escape their mouth. His fingers are clenched to keep himself from trying to speed up the process.
Most of the words aren't fully processed because his thinking brain has mostly turned off by this point. The kiss is a surprise, but he lightly clings to Nobunaga as he returns it.] Fuck. [The word is soft, certainly not an order, just something to say. But as his head tilts back to expose more of this throat, those words hit and his breath hitches again. How is he this hot? It's unreal.] Please. [It is taking all of his effort to drag Nobunaga down on top of them and they're breathing heavy.]
[Nobunaga laughs into Klaus' neck, covering them in still more kisses and tiny bites, with a longer tugging bite to Klaus' right ear.] I'm going to make you concede I can be so much hotter than any other version of yourself. Bwahahaha. [Yeah okay, maybe there's some jealousy in there. Regardless of what he's trying to allow himself or not.]
[His fingers switch from caressing the outside of Klaus legs to the the inside, sliding up and taking Klaus in his hand with a deadly smirk.] How do you want this? [Another purring rumbling bite to Klaus' neck, just absolutely enjoying himself, almost getting a contact high even without the other one having taken anything yet.]
[Can't even compete with another version of himself. Klaus laughs, breathier than he usually sounds.] A-any hotter and you'd be on fire. [Does that work for him? Klaus hopes so because real people thoughts are hard.]
[He breathes in sharply, hips jerking up toward Nobunaga's hand. It takes a moment for his brain to even function enough to answer because there's options and well...maybe less self torture.] I... [Words. They need words.] Fast. [If a hand comes down to sort of guide Nobunaga's hand in a way that shows him what to do, well...Klaus figures it's easier than talking.]
I can do that. [Fire. He said before he's the most dangerous.]
[There's an even eviler smirk as Nobunaga tightens his grip on Klaus hard and gives him a small growl as he bites down his neck and shoulder top.] You don't really think I'll let you set your own pace, do you? [Nom! But he follows it up with soothing licks, a low groan of concentration, because truthfully, it's not that easy for him to drag it out as slow as he intends either.] That wouldn't be much punishment, now would it? [The bites go down the front of Klaus' chest with a happy purr, his hand almost too tight on Klaus, restricting the blood flow as he makes his way down with bites and kisses to Klaus' stomach.] Now aren't you pretty like this.
[This is how he dies. From being far too turned on to function. At least that’s how it feels right now. And what a way to go. His body feels like it’s on fire and he doesn’t know if he’s even breathing.]
[There’s a low whine and they squirm just slightly, trying to will it to go faster even if the punishment of it all makes it better. There’s going to be so many marks and he just couldn’t care if he tried.] Fuck.
[Their body is flushed, breath heavy and short as they try to keep it together.] Please. [The word is just as much a whine as anything else. Please keep going. They open their eyes and look down, eyes hooded.] Please. [Just a little softer.]
Bwahahahaha! [Okay, the begging works, Nobunaga isn't COMPLETELY heartless, and he does love Klaus, and more importantly... isn't THAT supremely patient himself. He does spent a few extra minutes to skip the best part of Klaus so he can bite their legs, as previously promised, but it's not long before still holding their cock ever so tightly, he takes a slow lick of the head, watching Klaus' face completely to savor their reaction even more than all the rest.]
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Date: 2022-11-01 08:52 am (UTC)[The rest takes some processing.]
[Finally Nobunaga just pulls Klaus forward for a rough kiss.] Hard lines, is it?
You will always have to tell me what you expect. [Gods, jealousy is just... such a pain in the ass. It's there. He can feel it. And easily ignore it.] I already know I'm the best. [The best at being Demon King of 6th Heaven. But if Klaus doesn't want that...]
[A head tilt.] I will never restrict your freedom. Breaking the castes, breaking people's conditioning and brainwashing is part of this. I know your... cult [A flicker.] you are used to a lot of people holding you up as a god. Loving you constantly. It is not so different, I am used to a country full. Well, most of Japan hates me, but good enough.
[Ugh words. Feelings. Part of him feels like going icy again. Detached. What does it matter to him if Klaus gets coffee with a demigod? Things Nobunaga wants to do. There's enough time and the balance between being tyrannical and overbearing...]
[A forced feral grin.] But do not think your neck will escape so unscathed to tell stories of whose bed you were last in.
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Date: 2022-11-01 09:24 am (UTC)[There's a soft moan at the kiss.] Yes. Boundaries. You're allowed to have them. For this. For us.
[Klaus doesn't want him to feel like he has to accept it. He can be okay.] You are the best. [There's a smile at that.] Which is why you're my boyfriend. [There's a small frown at the rest of it.]
I don't want to be a god or worshipped as one. That's why I ran away in the first place. I just...it just sort of happened. [Another frown] I know that I'm more open. That I don't mind if you're fucking someone else, but...
[How to explain this.] I don't want to conquer anyone else's heart and I don't want to give mine to anyone else. And I don't want you to conquer someone else's heart either. But if you say no, that's it. I'm just clarifying so nothing happens that fucks things up. This isn't all about me.
[He studies him quietly.] I've only been in your bed and mine alone. No one else's.
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Date: 2022-11-01 09:29 am (UTC)[... The rest is overwhelming. He flickers through a whole spectrum of emotions. Happy about being Klaus' boyfriend. Literally sparkling about it, he's so pleased.]
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Date: 2022-11-01 09:33 am (UTC)[Very intense!]
[Was he putting too much pressure on Klaus?]
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Date: 2022-11-01 09:56 am (UTC)You're asking something of me I do not know I can do. I do not know how I'll feel until I do. It takes... time for me. So many things get factored. Weighed. Pushed against each other like bricks in a wall until I am as sure of it as I am of a brick wall. [A small grunt, and he just closes his eyes, breathing Klaus in quietly, trying to sort it all out. Emotions.]
[What he wants. Klaus to be free and happy. That part's easy. The hard part is how to get there. Freedom. He holds Klaus' hands in both of his own.]
It's good to have friends. I said before, it's my pride to know I'm the best, so I have nothing to be concerned about. But I am still phenomenally greedy. I want to carry you all around the ship and never let you go. Steal every moment of your time because you are like a banner in war so I always know the direction of my progress. When I do things without you, it's like you're missing and I hate that I cannot instantly summon you with a snap of my fingers. [Huff. Pout.]
I cannot have you all to myself and you should not let me attempt such a thing either. [A kiss to Klaus forehead, and he drags him over to towels to gently towel him off and wring the hair carefully.]
I cannot put restrictions on you for... nearly anything. I can only say, come to me as you will, and then have confidence in my skills to satisfy you. Tch. [He STILL can't hug. But he settles for leaning his forehead to Klaus' again.] It is my hard line. When I train hawks, I do not bind them ever. I give them shelter, treats, training, and they come when I whistle because they know I am the best at getting them hunting, much better than on their own. My army too. That is my pride. That all of my soldiers, and everyone employed in my care, couldn't possibly do better elsewhere, because I'm simply the best. What that means for you... [A long drawn out kiss! All emotions, the conflicted frustration with himself for not knowing himself well enough to advise, for being flustered by simple things, for being so inexperienced, for any shreds of resentment or jealousy he might harbor -- he wants to be happy and supportive, so why can't he just do that?] You will have to find out yourself and tell me. [A follow up kiss too!]
Rolling contract. One day at a time. If one day you need to change it, you'll tell me. And have faith in my overconfidence to handle whatever makes you happiest and freest. So you can be your best possible flying tiger and live up to your potential.
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Date: 2022-11-01 05:53 pm (UTC)[They grab Nobunaga's hand to kiss at the knuckles.] Honest communication is kind of important in these sort of situations. So if you're not comfortable with anything...you can tell me that and I'll respect that boundary. Like the safewords.
[It's nice to be cared for and...well, he feels a little guilt for considering it without checking first, but things had been so...all over the place. But...] I really like you. [And that's just them leaning over to carefully snuggle up to his neck.] So I want anything that happens moving forward to work for both of us. If that's monogamy, then it's monogamy. Okay? And let me re-emphasize that is doesn't make you a bad person or overly restrictive to not like the idea of me with someone else. Maybe that's...just something we explore together or not at all? Like if, for some very unlikely reason, Tendi thought we were both hot and...you know...we decided to all three be together.
If you need to take time to think about it and see where your feelings are, that's okay, but don't just... [Have some vague gesturing.] Act like it's okay to appease me. [A wince] That's not the right word, but...don't feel like that's what you're doing. I know that I'm okay with you sleeping with someone because you're pretty obvious in how you feel about me and all that. If my feelings for you change, I'll let you know, but I...you're important to me, okay?
[A beat] You're very strong and intimidating...even when you're being soft. Your enemies would be quaking. [Something they hope smooths over any possibly ruffled feathers.]
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Date: 2022-11-01 07:15 pm (UTC)[The finger kisses, the closeness, the actual intimacy.]
[Nobunaga feels like a maelstrom internally. Ice and fire.]
[Honest communication, boundaries, comfortable, safewords.]
[Monogamy is a foreign concept.]
[SUCH a foreign concept.]
[His parents didn't do that, did anyone? Obviously some must. His hawks did, but it wasn't out of devotion as much as circumstances. This is different, because they're humans, and their lives are their own, and with a broader selection of possibilities by far, even within the scope of just those on the ship..]
Go on the date. I can't know I'm the best if you never taste anything else. Tea and coffee, right? I can't truly say tea is the best until I try coffee too. [But he's kind of sure of it. That tea is better. But he can't qualify that without trying both anyway.]
What's so hot about him anyway? [He tries to remember what Jeff, the real Jeff, said about him. It was heavily colored through emotions, and colors, and Nobunaga tries to sort it, but cannot. It doesn't matter. He can't imagine dating Jeff at all. Not because of monogamy, but because Jeff reminded him so much of a baby brother. Maybe even one of Ranmaru's brothers.]
[He pins Klaus down to the floor, both arms above their head again. He'll move them to the bed or sofa again in a bit, but for now...]
[Small kisses to Klaus' face.] I'm not soft. [A small laugh and a tiny nip to Klaus' jawline.] I'm not being soft. [Maybe he is. Neither the fire or ice, just where they meet, instead of a typhoon, almost negating each other. Who knows? Not Nobunaga.]
Communication. I will need your help. This is another time thing. I feel like a caveman. "Monogamy." This is not a -- [He rolls a hand on his wrist before gently lacing through Klaus' hair and leaning back, he should get a hairbrush for him. Klaus is like a horse with a very pretty mane and brushing is important!] It's not a thing I know much about. Marriage in my time is purely political. [Can't look at Klaus in the eyes, he's too... flustered. Not shy, or embarrassed, but nervous. Unsure. It's stepping on the edge of a cliff, he can't just stomp about loudly like an oni or he'll fall.] It's financial and about heirs. I know... in the future it's about deepening relationships. [Rubs the back of his head, and returns with a brush, holding it up questioningly to Klaus to wait for permission.]
I know what I want. Right now, this second. For the future... I know some things.
I don't just like you. But even if you say it's not restrictive... That you are strong enough not to let me do anything you don't want... Tch. [Offers to lace his fingers with Klaus'.] It is me who is not strong enough. I have to say do what you will, or else... [A head shake.] Or else I will become what I fight against. How I'll feel about it... [A head tilt.] I don't know yet. I know I only want the best. You. [Pokes Klaus' forehead.] Deputy Pratt said you were like different timeline twins of each other. But I cannot imagine wanting to have sex with him, or even anyone else at all.
There's less children in the future, so that the ones that do exist are more doted on. Less worries about their survival. Partners is like this, is it not? I don't want to deal with more than just one tiger who pretends to be a kitten while getting into so much trouble. I can handle Pratt as a samurai, but not as a -- anything sexual or romantic. And yeah, Tendi's hot. [A head tilt.] But you'll have to teach me everything about... stuff like that.
Go on the date, and then... if you want to do anything, just keep me updated. [Nods.] I will take time. I am still quite used to... always having my own way, so it's a new way of thinking. You're my only partner though. What you want that to mean... you have to decide. If I'm not the best, then I will do something to get stronger, but that is not your fault if it is insufficient, understood?
That is the best I can say right now.
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Date: 2022-11-01 09:03 pm (UTC)[There's a small noise of surprise as he's pinned, but he looks up, trying to focus on the conversation at hand and not the desire pooling in his stomach. God. He's so hot right now that it's ridiculous.] Oh. Forgive me. How could I be so foolish. Of course you're not. [And really, he just wants to lean into this and forget the conversation, forget everything else.]
So you weren't meant to marry for love. [Klaus has seen movies. He got pretty bored with the Jane Austen stuff, but he's seen so many of Allison's movies and things she's suggested to him.] Monogamy is just...you only want to be with one person. And that's fine. Did you...would you have had a wife and...like someone on the side or just...a wife?
[I don't just like you. They clear their throat for a moment.] Don't just like me. [They're aware they sound like a parrot, but it narrows the world slightly.] You aren't like them, by the way. You're so much better and kinder than the people you've been fighting against and I know that you feel like you're nothing more than an evil, dangerous person, but...it's not true. You're good. You are. [So, yes, he will take his hand, lace their fingers together. If someone taking the time to wash his hair and brush it afterwards isn't soft and good, Klaus doesn't know what is.]
Not into Pratt, huh? I mean, I would probably fuck myself if given half a chance, so...I can't say anything about anything, really. [Yep. He just said that to someone not his siblings.] There was a chance that it could have happened. Even with the paradox syndrome thing. At least I wasn't Diego. He was just gonna kill himself. Like a psycho.
[But right. This is...a serious conversation.] Okay. I'll get the coffee, but I'm not calling it a date for now. But right now...I want us to be together.
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Date: 2022-11-01 09:35 pm (UTC)No I -- Politics, remember? I specifically avoided a wife, because I didn't want to fuck up the country like King Henry VIII. Though apparently England did fine, and no one knows enough history to tell me how and why. Is it pirates? Did Spain and Portugal fuck up? If it was pirates, how did marriage between men get banned in America? [Spreads both hands. He's getting off topic, but he wants to understand.] No wife, no heirs. I would have married Kichou if he agreed, but he is not a masochist, and it would be a political alliance. [Sigh.] My father had... more than just my mother, yeah. They only got married when I was six? I think it might have been related to him taking me into battle now that I think of it. [A headshake.] It's worse for royalty, but even Hideyoshis' parents weren't dissimilar.
Love is... [The words stick in his throat and gah... what are you even saying, Klaus?]
[He takes Klaus' hand, but just bops their cheeks gently.] Nothing about me is kind. [Kind. Kind? Kind... Nope. The disconnect is stronger. He wonders if this is how Klaus feels when he praises Klaus' strength. The whole world has told them, reinforced the opposite belief for so long that to believe otherwise might as well be impossible.] Good.... [Just... ARCHES EYEBROWS. Klaus, he is proud of you killing him, that's not kind, is it?]
[He'll just focus on brushing Klaus' mane ever so gently.]
[And he laughs at the idea of Klaus fucking themself.] I would like to see that. Two Klaus having sex. But you would both be expecting the other to do what you want, and not doing it yourself. So it would be very cute, and a little lazy. [Extra cute.] I would definitely be like Diego. I would kill another version of myself. Not because I hate myself, but I would only want the strongest version of me to survive and carry on both our ambitions and responsibilities.
Isn't it a date? [Shit, but he's blushing at that.] Yeah. I want... this. You. Only you. Tsk... [Kisses Klaus' shoulder!] I suspect you might be happy if I give you a stronger barrier. To say "don't do this," so you can live up to my expectations. [Tugs Klaus in close and rests his chin on his shoulder, one hand around their waist and stomach.] But silly Lucky 4, you always exceed my expectations in every way.
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Date: 2022-11-01 10:28 pm (UTC)[There's a shrug about the whole pirates and Spain rambling. He doesn't know why.] So that's just the way of things? It sounds a little sad. [They've felt love and how strong it was and Dave was...everything to them once. It's hard to think of them.]
[This is exactly how it feels when he's praised.] You are. [A beat.] Love is what?
[But he hums happily at the brushing, leaning against him.]
Hey. I would totally rock my own world. Don't question me. [They lightly swat him.] I don't really like you being dead, but...I guess it does make sense for you.
I guess? But...I think it doesn't really...matter. Friendly coffee experience is just as well. [The blush is a good sign. Better than all the other expressions from before] I like it when you're bossy. [A little smile, but he's made his decision. He leans back just enough to make sure to look Nobunaga in the eyes, fingers on either side of his face.] I want you.
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Date: 2022-11-01 11:55 pm (UTC)[Love is... hard to put words to for him. He skips the words for now and kisses Klaus intensely instead.]
Then should you ever duplicate, I will command you to demonstrate your ultimate techniques so I can improve upon them and 'rock your world' even better. Mufufufu...
[More kisses and back to pinning Klaus aggressively, nipping all around his neck.] It is truly a strain for me not to be commanding, always.
If I were to tell you 'I love you,' would you be upset? [That way if it makes Klaus want to run away for coffee even more... then he should say it. To give Klaus the most opportunity to make up his own mind, regardless of Nobunaga.]
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Date: 2022-11-02 12:30 am (UTC)[They arch up just slightly, head tilting back at the feeling of teeth on his neck. There's a small moan.] Feel free to tell me what to do. Here. Now.
[And then everything goes off kilter and his eyes flutter open.] You...love me? [It's not upset. Confused, sure, but not upset. But there's something else underneath all of it. A sort of yearning that he's not sure how to explain.] Say it again. [He looks at him again.] No question.
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Date: 2022-11-02 12:46 am (UTC)I love you. Baka. [Chu!] Don't you ever forget it.
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Date: 2022-11-02 01:42 am (UTC)And again. He doesn't mean to like it so much. And he's trying to figure out his feelings at the same time. Love. The part of their mind that would argue is flatlining.] I won't. [They look up at Nobunaga for a moment.] I want... [A beat.] I need you.
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Date: 2022-11-02 02:38 am (UTC)[He kisses their lips, and gently slides his fingers along the inside of Klaus' thighs.]
I love you. I love your deceptive strength. I love every inane story about your past and present. I love your secret brilliance. I love you, and the way you always act so freely, you're so brave and bold, so many things I wish I could be. I love the way you move, like you're forever dancing to music in your heart, and I want to conquer it so I can hear it too. I love you for being ridiculous, and doing things even when you hate them, because it makes me feel like maybe I can be capable of more too. [Chu!]
[He begins covering Klaus on kisses, focusing on the bruises, very gently as if he can heal them, but then all over, claiming and conquering territory, leaving small marks in places that won't be instantly visible, but Klaus will always be stuck knowing about.]
I love how you get into trouble and act like you're trying to avoid it. I love you, because everyone who meets you is charmed enough to follow you like a cult, and just like the trouble: you haven't the faintest idea what you did. [All the kisses!] I love that for you... I'll try anything, no matter how my mind first reacts. No matter how I think. The stupid J-Idol moves, and I'm so proud of you for being that strong and fearless, even you see the best in everyone else in a way I can only envy. If my dream is to free everyone here, then loving you is every bit a part of it.
I love you, because whether I'm a demon, possessed, mass murderer, and all the rest, you seem utterly determined to charm me like everyone else, so for you, being a pet lion king doesn't seem so bad. [Bites Klaus' neck, NOM!] I love that I cannot predict you, and I feel no need to. [Deep breath!!]
[He should maybe shut up soon.]
I'm sorry I couldn't punish you properly. Please accept the humble gift of this blackened demon-gnawed heart instead. You can leave it on a shelf as a trophy if you wish. Just know, I do love you. And I've never told anyone that before. Maybe I never will again, but if I do, it'll only be because you make it so easy to.
[He's not jealous of Dave, more grateful. And although he loved Kitsuno to pieces, he couldn't ever tell her, because she was dying, and it seemed like a severe burden just for his own torment. And don't get him started on siblings.]
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Date: 2022-11-02 04:13 am (UTC)[The words are enough on their own, but the kisses and markings on top of them leave him a mostly quivering mess because he both wants him to just fuck him already or draw it out until he can't stand it. It's a lot all at once. But not a bad a lot and...despite their habit of pushing things and people away and generally being unable to take a compliment to save themself...this doesn't make him want to stare awkwardly into space.]
Blackened, huh? [There's a soft laugh.] But if you- [A subtle shift.] If you want to punish me. [Right. Got to get his thoughts together.] Touching and kissing and the little bites everywhere but where I want you to until I can't stand it usually gets me going. And just...make it rough. At the end. A little mix of gentle and rough to get started. [Because woops. He did kind of miss the punishment.] If you want. I'll also accept if you can't wait and want to make it rough now.
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Date: 2022-11-02 12:20 pm (UTC)[Gentle tender kisses, mixed with abrupt nippy bites all up the inside of Klaus' legs, following through on his promise. The fingers massaging Klaus like polishing one of his weapons, caressing the outside of their legs, as if controlling their entire bloodflow, making sure it continued circulating, and intimating he could cut it off in an instant if he so chose.]
Your strength and boldness in pursuing whatever you want, consequences be damned, making an ally of the pain so you always the master of your body since your mind will not always obey. [CHU!] But I shall let you in on a secret again.
[Reaches all the way up to the back of Klaus' head to pull them forward to kiss brutally hard, following up with gentle bites and kisses down their throat.] I can make any part of you obey me. [THAT Is also probably NOT a secret. WHATEVER.]
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Date: 2022-11-02 05:03 pm (UTC)Most of the words aren't fully processed because his thinking brain has mostly turned off by this point. The kiss is a surprise, but he lightly clings to Nobunaga as he returns it.] Fuck. [The word is soft, certainly not an order, just something to say. But as his head tilts back to expose more of this throat, those words hit and his breath hitches again. How is he this hot? It's unreal.] Please. [It is taking all of his effort to drag Nobunaga down on top of them and they're breathing heavy.]
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Date: 2022-11-03 12:48 am (UTC)[Nobunaga laughs into Klaus' neck, covering them in still more kisses and tiny bites, with a longer tugging bite to Klaus' right ear.] I'm going to make you concede I can be so much hotter than any other version of yourself. Bwahahaha. [Yeah okay, maybe there's some jealousy in there. Regardless of what he's trying to allow himself or not.]
[His fingers switch from caressing the outside of Klaus legs to the the inside, sliding up and taking Klaus in his hand with a deadly smirk.] How do you want this? [Another purring rumbling bite to Klaus' neck, just absolutely enjoying himself, almost getting a contact high even without the other one having taken anything yet.]
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Date: 2022-11-03 01:35 am (UTC)[He breathes in sharply, hips jerking up toward Nobunaga's hand. It takes a moment for his brain to even function enough to answer because there's options and well...maybe less self torture.] I... [Words. They need words.] Fast. [If a hand comes down to sort of guide Nobunaga's hand in a way that shows him what to do, well...Klaus figures it's easier than talking.]
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Date: 2022-11-03 03:06 am (UTC)[There's an even eviler smirk as Nobunaga tightens his grip on Klaus hard and gives him a small growl as he bites down his neck and shoulder top.] You don't really think I'll let you set your own pace, do you? [Nom! But he follows it up with soothing licks, a low groan of concentration, because truthfully, it's not that easy for him to drag it out as slow as he intends either.] That wouldn't be much punishment, now would it? [The bites go down the front of Klaus' chest with a happy purr, his hand almost too tight on Klaus, restricting the blood flow as he makes his way down with bites and kisses to Klaus' stomach.] Now aren't you pretty like this.
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Date: 2022-11-03 03:44 am (UTC)[There’s a low whine and they squirm just slightly, trying to will it to go faster even if the punishment of it all makes it better. There’s going to be so many marks and he just couldn’t care if he tried.] Fuck.
[Their body is flushed, breath heavy and short as they try to keep it together.] Please. [The word is just as much a whine as anything else. Please keep going. They open their eyes and look down, eyes hooded.] Please. [Just a little softer.]
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