[Nobunaga curls up around Klaus like a warm weighted blanket, or emotional support lion.]
That's not... actually... true. In Hell. I had to consider my entire army always. I wasn't allowed to do whatever I wanted. I was never free. I couldn't even sail away to go exploring without resolving the entire country first. I couldn't get injured or Hideyoshi would go insane, and try to get revenge, and try to become the Demon King instead, and he's better than that.
I do have to consider how... everything I do affects others. Including you, even though you are not a weapon to be used by anyone. You are just zen.
[HUG! HUG HUG HUG!]
The only other woman I ever loved was named Kitsuno. I hate hearing her name, so do not mention it outside of this.
She was tortured by--
[Oh. He's crying. Why is he crying?]
[He tries to blink it away, but it's still coming???] By the gods. I guess. Or health. Or just fate. I don't know. She was the world to me for a long time. [Stop crying.] I couldn't tell her I loved her, because politics, and she was dying, so it would have been cruel and pointless. When she died, the religious told me it was her time. That it was destiny, for her to be tortured, and die, and I just... couldn't accept it. I know if I made the country better, then--
[He would REALLY like to stop crying now.]
[Ugh, he just lays sideways and briefly covers his head with a pillow until he can compose himself.]
[And gently bops Klaus with the pillow when he's calm enough.]
So I ... I don't want you to feel like that. But even just looking after my soldiers is why Ari was able to write in the clause anyway. [Hiccup. And another light pillow bop.] It's not that I'm not thinking about how it could affect someone, if I was, I wouldn't have asked you in the first place. It's that... to me it's still worth the price. If the world is some kind of place that people get tortured and no one things it can get better, then it doesn't deserve to exist anyway. [Finger over Klaus' lips again.] But I know it can get better. I have seen it.
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Date: 2022-11-30 04:19 am (UTC)[Ugh... Klaus that's...]
[Completely and totally fair.]
[Nobunaga curls up around Klaus like a warm weighted blanket, or emotional support lion.]
That's not... actually... true. In Hell. I had to consider my entire army always. I wasn't allowed to do whatever I wanted. I was never free. I couldn't even sail away to go exploring without resolving the entire country first. I couldn't get injured or Hideyoshi would go insane, and try to get revenge, and try to become the Demon King instead, and he's better than that.
I do have to consider how... everything I do affects others. Including you, even though you are not a weapon to be used by anyone. You are just zen.
[HUG! HUG HUG HUG!]
The only other woman I ever loved was named Kitsuno. I hate hearing her name, so do not mention it outside of this.
She was tortured by--
[Oh. He's crying. Why is he crying?]
[He tries to blink it away, but it's still coming???] By the gods. I guess. Or health. Or just fate. I don't know. She was the world to me for a long time. [Stop crying.] I couldn't tell her I loved her, because politics, and she was dying, so it would have been cruel and pointless. When she died, the religious told me it was her time. That it was destiny, for her to be tortured, and die, and I just... couldn't accept it. I know if I made the country better, then--
[He would REALLY like to stop crying now.]
[Ugh, he just lays sideways and briefly covers his head with a pillow until he can compose himself.]
[And gently bops Klaus with the pillow when he's calm enough.]
So I ... I don't want you to feel like that. But even just looking after my soldiers is why Ari was able to write in the clause anyway. [Hiccup. And another light pillow bop.] It's not that I'm not thinking about how it could affect someone, if I was, I wouldn't have asked you in the first place. It's that... to me it's still worth the price. If the world is some kind of place that people get tortured and no one things it can get better, then it doesn't deserve to exist anyway. [Finger over Klaus' lips again.] But I know it can get better. I have seen it.