[More kisses! Nobunaga has been channeling all his sexual and emotional energy into the kisses since their return from breakup, and does it again, all his lust and aggression getting shoved sideways into the kisses to make sure Klaus absolutely feels how much Nobunaga loves him, still adores him, would never ever throw away his treasure, and still hunt him down and try to woo him all over again.]
I love you. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. I don't care that maybe I shouldn't love, not supposed to, I'll fight infinite timelines for this. Around you I feel like I can just be myself. And yeah. [More kisses, all the kisses, deep long meaningful kisses!] I got terrified when I thought I couldn't. [Kiss kiss kiss! And one for the nose tip and forehead and chin for good measure!] And maybe I will again. But-- [A longer drawn out liss, very gently sucking on Klaus' bottom lip.] Every moment I have with you is precious, and I don't want to waste them, so what's a little bit of fear that I'll just lose them? [Chu! Chu! Nobunaga kisses Klaus' cheek, but his hands stay firmly in place on Klaus in a hig, because there's no way they won't try to be sexual otherwise purely from muscle memory!] I will just make sure I don't.
I want to spend every moment with you. But I said before, this is the struggle of loving one such as me. [Finally Nobunaga takes Klaus' hand and slowly luxuriously lavishes long lingering kisses over each digit, gently locking the webbing between them, but intimate over sexual, so no sucking on them like he would have in the past.] There is never enough of me to do all I want. But I will always buy more time for you.
You make me feel that way, too. That me is enough. [God, though, this is just firing up a lot of things in his brain and the want to do more is building, but he’s trying to be kind to himself, to give himself time and not just jump into things. Especially when he’s feeling anxious about it. Eventually they’ll have to push past that anxiety, but not today.]
If I could clone myself to do all the other things while I’m with you, I would. But I guess we’ll both have to be okay with spending time apart. Just a little. [A beat.] And now I might really need to nap before I let myself get carried away. Give me a couple more days and we can plan for something more than this.
Okay. Be gentle to yourself. I will learn to try not to fight myself all the time as well. [Chu!] And by proxy, Valdis as well. [Rubs their noses together!] Sleep well. I will return to check on you. Don't forget to text me if you can't sleep and get bored, okay?
Sorry for being like this. [Kisses! CHU!] I didn't even love Kitsuno this much, so it makes me a little extra intense... and you know I already tend to be as it is. [Rubs noses together!]
I don't know if I love her like that. Platonic. You, Crichton, Teyrey. That is already more than I've ever loved anyone else my whole life. [HUFF. Sideglance blushy desu.] How do you do it? [Curls around Klaus protectively!] It hurt so much when I thought Crichton wasn't-- and -- [FROWN.] But I never had friends before you all either. Is it just less extreme for everyone else?
[Klaus smiles and nudges back with his nose] It’s okay. I get it. Also we did just have a great and terrible upheaval. And being jealous happens to us all. [It’s just Klaus generally knows where Nobunaga is on his feelings.]
You feel your feelings very deeply, but you also repress your feelings a lot when you see them as weaker feelings. You just…go cold. I guess. Like you don’t have feelings. Which is a lie. Cause you do. And now you’re actually allowed to feel the things you want to feel that aren’t anger or about fighting. And that’s got to be overwhelming sometimes. [They smile a little.]
But I think you care for her. I think she cares for you, too. I think you’re both too stubborn to admit it. But…it’s best for you both to figure out your feelings towards one another and then let yourselves sit with it. And stop being so hard-headed. She hasn’t cared about people in a long time either. So…it’s bound to be overwhelming for her, too. To feel things for people. But if you both fighting all the time is going to make things uncomfortable, I mean…I don’t want that either. So I guess you both have to decide what works best and what’s healthiest for you both.
[Snuggles, and nudges his head carefully under Klaus' chin!] It might hurt. So I think that's another thing I want to prove to us both. That it doesn't have to. I might not be the right man for that... but no one else is as crazy as me to think in these specific ways, you know? Or rather... it's okay to hurt, right? Right.
I love you. Not leaving yet. Just want to heart your heartbeat a little longer.
I’m… [The urge to say not is strong and they push it down.] Yeah. It happens from time to time.
[Klaus wraps an arm around Nobunaga’s waist, holding him there as he nuzzles up to him.] I want you both to be able to care for one another without hurting one another at the same time. I’m sure you’ll figure it out.
That’s fine. You can stay as long as you like. I’ll be here whenever you get back, too. And I love you, too.
[This is very cute of him. Just have a couple kisses to the top of your head. They let out a slow breath, letting their eyes slide closed. They feel much more comfortable here with the weight on them and the knowledge that Nobunaga is right there.]
Love you. [It’s a quiet, sleepy sort of mumble, but still there.]
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Date: 2023-01-14 12:53 pm (UTC)I love you. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. I don't care that maybe I shouldn't love, not supposed to, I'll fight infinite timelines for this. Around you I feel like I can just be myself. And yeah. [More kisses, all the kisses, deep long meaningful kisses!] I got terrified when I thought I couldn't. [Kiss kiss kiss! And one for the nose tip and forehead and chin for good measure!] And maybe I will again. But-- [A longer drawn out liss, very gently sucking on Klaus' bottom lip.] Every moment I have with you is precious, and I don't want to waste them, so what's a little bit of fear that I'll just lose them? [Chu! Chu! Nobunaga kisses Klaus' cheek, but his hands stay firmly in place on Klaus in a hig, because there's no way they won't try to be sexual otherwise purely from muscle memory!] I will just make sure I don't.
I want to spend every moment with you. But I said before, this is the struggle of loving one such as me. [Finally Nobunaga takes Klaus' hand and slowly luxuriously lavishes long lingering kisses over each digit, gently locking the webbing between them, but intimate over sexual, so no sucking on them like he would have in the past.] There is never enough of me to do all I want. But I will always buy more time for you.
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Date: 2023-01-14 05:51 pm (UTC)You make me feel that way, too. That me is enough. [God, though, this is just firing up a lot of things in his brain and the want to do more is building, but he’s trying to be kind to himself, to give himself time and not just jump into things. Especially when he’s feeling anxious about it. Eventually they’ll have to push past that anxiety, but not today.]
If I could clone myself to do all the other things while I’m with you, I would. But I guess we’ll both have to be okay with spending time apart. Just a little. [A beat.] And now I might really need to nap before I let myself get carried away. Give me a couple more days and we can plan for something more than this.
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Date: 2023-01-14 05:58 pm (UTC)Okay. Be gentle to yourself. I will learn to try not to fight myself all the time as well. [Chu!] And by proxy, Valdis as well. [Rubs their noses together!] Sleep well. I will return to check on you. Don't forget to text me if you can't sleep and get bored, okay?
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Date: 2023-01-14 09:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-14 09:42 pm (UTC)[MESSES WITH KLAUS' HAIR!]
[Ugh be kind. He's trying.]
[Meh. He pulls his hood up on his hoodie.]
You just mean... American friendship love with her, right? [Ugh. Why does--]
[Deep breath.]
[FACEPALM.] Explain it to me.
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Date: 2023-01-14 10:46 pm (UTC)Yes. I mean American friendship love. Platonic. I don’t feel romantically about anyone else but you. You have nothing to worry about.
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Date: 2023-01-14 10:52 pm (UTC)Sorry for being like this. [Kisses! CHU!] I didn't even love Kitsuno this much, so it makes me a little extra intense... and you know I already tend to be as it is. [Rubs noses together!]
I don't know if I love her like that. Platonic. You, Crichton, Teyrey. That is already more than I've ever loved anyone else my whole life. [HUFF. Sideglance blushy desu.] How do you do it? [Curls around Klaus protectively!] It hurt so much when I thought Crichton wasn't-- and -- [FROWN.] But I never had friends before you all either. Is it just less extreme for everyone else?
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Date: 2023-01-14 11:22 pm (UTC)You feel your feelings very deeply, but you also repress your feelings a lot when you see them as weaker feelings. You just…go cold. I guess. Like you don’t have feelings. Which is a lie. Cause you do. And now you’re actually allowed to feel the things you want to feel that aren’t anger or about fighting. And that’s got to be overwhelming sometimes. [They smile a little.]
But I think you care for her. I think she cares for you, too. I think you’re both too stubborn to admit it. But…it’s best for you both to figure out your feelings towards one another and then let yourselves sit with it. And stop being so hard-headed. She hasn’t cared about people in a long time either. So…it’s bound to be overwhelming for her, too. To feel things for people. But if you both fighting all the time is going to make things uncomfortable, I mean…I don’t want that either. So I guess you both have to decide what works best and what’s healthiest for you both.
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Date: 2023-01-14 11:29 pm (UTC)You're so smart.
[Snuggles, and nudges his head carefully under Klaus' chin!] It might hurt. So I think that's another thing I want to prove to us both. That it doesn't have to. I might not be the right man for that... but no one else is as crazy as me to think in these specific ways, you know? Or rather... it's okay to hurt, right? Right.
I love you. Not leaving yet. Just want to heart your heartbeat a little longer.
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Date: 2023-01-15 01:03 am (UTC)[Klaus wraps an arm around Nobunaga’s waist, holding him there as he nuzzles up to him.] I want you both to be able to care for one another without hurting one another at the same time. I’m sure you’ll figure it out.
That’s fine. You can stay as long as you like. I’ll be here whenever you get back, too. And I love you, too.
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Date: 2023-01-15 01:09 am (UTC)[GIDDY.]
[And just happily lays on Klaus' chest!]
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Date: 2023-01-15 03:06 am (UTC)Love you. [It’s a quiet, sleepy sort of mumble, but still there.]
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Date: 2023-01-15 03:09 am (UTC)[Happy snuggles and waits for Klaus to at least seemingly fall asleep before sneaking out and replacing himself with the tuxedo cat.]